Addiction is a brain disease. It is something that changes the way you think. To recover, you have to turn back the way you think. You have to revert back to when you were in control. Turn the mindset of doing anything to stay loaded into a mindset that you’ll do anything to be clean.
First off, you need to start today, and you need to take it slow.
Stop looking for your fix. Do not let yourself succumb to that anymore. To truly be in control, you cannot let drugs control you.
Take it slow.
Recovery takes time, and even just deciding to recover can be a hard process. There will be setbacks. It will be hard. Let yourself get to recovery in a timely, but possible manner. Take it slow and breathe.
Then, you can start to switch from addiction to recovery.
Use what you learned from addiction to recover.
Addiction made you realize just how possible things are, if you simply want it. With addiction, if you wanted a fix, you got it. No matter how hard it was, or what barriers you faced, you got what you wanted. The same can be true in recovery. If you want it, you will work towards it and face whatever obstacles come your way. You can recover.
Addiction may have also taught you that life can be cruel. Recovery can teach you that same lesson. Becoming sober can be cruel, but it is worth it. There will be long days, and mental breakdowns, but that is the price of recovery.
Addiction showed you that life has rewards. In addiction, there was the reward of a fix or a high. But that reward also destroyed you. It was not a healthy reward. In recovery, there is a much better reward than addiction. At the end of recovery, there is a healed body and mind, and a life to build up again. You can be you again.
Addiction doesn’t have to destroy you. You can use what you learned in addiction to recover. Your life is worth it. Finding recovery is a phenomenal reward, in of itself. Start today. Steps Recovery Centers can help.