Can I Really Do This?

The effects of addiction can be overwhelming. Not only are our bodies completely consumed by our substance use, but our minds are, too. Addiction impacts every aspect of our lives – our families, friends, social life, school or work, and our self-esteem. And addiction even eats away at our souls and our spirituality. Given that it is such an overwhelming task, is it even possible to recover from addiction? Can I really do this?

The answer is different for each person. At the end of the day, it is up to each individual to be vigilant in their own recovery process. Many will relapse, in fact between 40-60 percent of people who seek treatment will relapse. But that is not a failure. For many, it is just a setback. It means that, like any other medical treatment, there are adjustments to be made. The question really is how committed am I to my wellbeing?

Our individual commitment is based on many factors. What is propelling us to reach out for help? Are we doing this for other people or for ourselves? Or maybe both? Even within those answers, there are individual results. So it all comes down to us. The answer to “Can I really do this?” can be found in a series of questions. These are some of the questions we can ask ourselves to determine how ready we are to start on our own journey of wellness:

  • Am I tired of being sick?

We have lived with our addiction, but at some point, we just get tired of the whole process – the highs and lows, the pain we cause ourselves and others, the inability to show up in our lives. Maybe we did not even realize that addiction is a chronic illness and that we can seek treatment to help ourselves recover.

  • Am I tired of letting other people down?

We see the faces of the people in our lives that we disappoint as we read this question – parents, siblings, children, a significant other, friends, employers or coworkers. We see them because we are tired of letting them down. But now we can change that, learn how to show up.

  • Am I tired of letting myself down?

When we look in the mirror, what do we see? We said we would never do ________ again. And then we did. When we are ready for some personal integrity, it is time to get help.

  • Do I want to be substance-free? For others? For me?

Some of us are more likely to get help if someone in our life suggests/insists/drops us off at the center. Even if that is the case, at any time we can make the decision to stay, to do the work for ourselves and/or for other people.

  • Do I want to be able to have some control over my life again?

When we are tired of our substance abuse controlling our lives and we are ready to make decisions that are not dictated by our substance use, then we are ready to get help.

  • Do I want to learn how to have healthy relationships?

When we look around us and the people surrounding us are either participating in our substance use, enabling us, or have been repeatedly hurt by us, then it is time to make changes in our lives and learn how to have healthy relationships.

  • Do I want to gain or improve my spirituality?

Whether or not we have ever had a relationship with God, this is an opportunity to learn to have faith and receive strength from a power higher than us. This can be very empowering and a healing focus in our lives.

  • Do I want to learn new tools to help me guide my own life?

In recovery, we can call upon things we already knew, but we can also learn new tools to help us, such as meditation, therapy, exercise and more. These tools will help strengthen us and give us daily help to stay on our recovery path.

  • Do I want to gain self-esteem and learn to love myself?

This may seem one of the hardest things about addiction recovery from the outside. Looking at ourselves, people in active addiction often tend to have more self-loathing and disgust. But by learning about addiction, learning about ourselves, and working to better ourselves, we might just find out that we love ourselves after all.

  • Do I want to have a second chance at life?

It may seem impossible to make anything of the life we have lived. So many of us have more regrets than successes, and it feels like a weight that can never be lifted. But with careful attention to ourselves and our recovery process, we can achieve a second chance at life.

If you answered yes to any of the questions above you may be ready to start the journey to recovery. If are unsure of what steps to take next call Steps Recovery Centers today – 385-250-1701– to talk with one of our trained clinicians. With levels of care from outpatient to residential, we can meet you where you are and help boost your journey to recovery.


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